#ill be thinking about this for awhile

[e40536]

I don't know how often you use Tumblr, but I saw what you posted on Twitter. I was going to post this to your strawpage but it's too long.

So to keep it anonymous, l'll just leave what I wrote for you here.

Take it how you will, I didn't intend for it to come across as rude or offensive. I'm sorry if it does.

But here

This might not be accurate but I'll just say this

For most people, we do things that we love, we feed off leisure. We spend our time developing skills based on those principles, some learn guitar, some start collections, some learn to draw, and others do a myriad of other things.

But, something about leisure, and having hobbies; is that in due time, no matter how hard we try. We lose fulfillment In what we do, some things just aren't enough anymore, the passion is dying down or at least hiding somewhere in your brain.

It's always unpleasant, to feel like you're losing yourself.

But, you're still creating who you are, you're still finding new parts of yourself in everything you love, in every song, in every book, in every movie, and in your everyday life. You find mediums to express yourself- you maintain them and you have your whole life, no matter where you are no matter what you do, you'll be doing something that you love weather you're aware of it or not.

So, when something does become tedious when it doesn't drive you the way it used to, you will continue on, you will start a new Whether you mean to or not.

You deserve a passion, an image, a voice, a story, you deserve to want to know who you are. Fight with yourself, and learn about yourself. Make things and do things, love things.

No matter what you decide to do, you'll be here [here as in Alive, not wherever you currently are]. And the people you love will hopefully be there too.

I can't claim to know how you feel, especially since I don't completely remember every point you made in your original tweet? But if you want a break, if you want to try something new. I think you should, no matter how scary, you deserve to develop and development takes change.

That's how you got here and that's how you'll get to wherever else you're headed.

That's all, goodbye, see you later

~☆*

no offense to you or anything but when i get lengthy asks i skim through them to see if its a bot or a person and i had to do a double take for this one because i read “some learn guitar” i thought this was an ad and then i looked a little closer HAHA…. Anyway, my actual response under the cut im about to go on a ramble:

First of all, i want to thank you for taking the time to write this and find a way to send it to me. This didn’t come off as offensive in any way at all! I like keeping the anon option on because while it does allow for nasty people to hide behind it, there are kind people like you who just prefer to stay hidden (i am one of these people, so i understand). And thank you again for reading what i originally wrote.

i deleted it not out of shame or embarrassment for being vulnerable on the internet, i want to share that side of myself to followers from time to time. I did it cause i thought what i said mightve sounded too incoherent, i was in a mood. I have been in one for quite some time and while ive managed to have quick escapes from it, it always comes back. To say im just miserable would be an understatement. And my deteriorating mental state reflects how i think about my social media presence, posting/sharing things, & creating them. I screenshotted everything with plans to rewrite (or just repost) what i said… I posted that in hopes of letting other people know how much i appreciate their viewing of my content. Even if they’re a silent follower. And also because i wanted to share my own perspective on the whole posting for likes or posting for love of art. I hoped that how i ended it came off a little optimistic. While i am sad, I still do believe things will turn out fine in the end..

It feels… weird (in a good way dont worry, im kinda in disbelief at the moment haha) to see people say that i deserve a voice, passion, story or image, because i just kind of mindlessly post things. I don’t think very hard about how others might perceive it. I don’t really think of myself as anything really. Not in a total self deprecating way its just like euuuhhh? me? artist? an inspiration? I know i inspire some because they have told me, but it never truly clicked for me that like, oh yeah this person actively thinks about the things i make or write when they want to be inspired. And like i said in the tweets, my drive is different from others… i have no overwhelming desire to be KNOWN and PRAISED, although i get why others do, that shit is addicting, haha. i just post for the people who i know like to see what i make. I feel accomplished as an artist in that sense, that ive left a mark on someone, one person at least. I have always been in the background of projects rather than be in the front of them. You see my name in various credits, in fact most of my audience came from other people mentioning me in their works. I used to really struggle and even cry over this (i still kinda do), but then i learned to be fine with it… proud of it even in a sense cause its great to be apart of things. Its just the way other people treat me is where it gets me. I dont like being treated like someone’s shadow haha.

Earlier last year i struggled with what to do with my life (career wise) and i am… still struggling. The road im currently on leads to a career that has nothing to do with art but still something i want to do, have wanted to do since i was small. But i feel like i am betraying the other me, the kid me who did have dreams of being an artist, they did not have huge aspirations of making an original show or comic or anything, but they did want to be apart of things, help others realize those aspirations. We will see though, who knows, maybe the road will throw me a curve ball and ill be in a class learning the skills to try to master something ive been doing for years.

as for posting art, i dont intend on taking a break dont worry, im all good over here. I want to keep sharing the stuff i make, haha. That was supposed to be what everyone shouldve taken away from my closing statement on that tweet. That im going to continue creating & putting stuff out for the people who do care to see it. Numbers are irrelevant, as long as there’s someone out there its worth sharing.

thank you again, this made me tear up a little bit… I really appreciate this, more than you know. Like i mentioned in the tweet i revisited some of the nice things people have said to me regarding my work/person to help my mood, it is nice to receive something new to read… i really needed this. Thank you <3

[alicornze7]

Silly guys goin' on silly adventures:]

@rorydrawsandwrites's puppeteer au but the only difference is that jax gives consent

My contribution to this wonderful au has been long overdue:')

Rambling in tags ehe (cw: ribbun:p)

Well maybe it's not the only difference

[myonmukyuu]

[trashhicon]

Starbee sketches + cotl starbee + Chrimbus starbee adventure!

Actions speak louder than words…

HF! Bee I ended up doing a little sketch of after an inspiring conversation i had with @bunnihops

Bee encouraged

And my starbee sky: cotl designs which I’m pretty sure caters to no one but me <3

They danced to jingle bell rock in the boba shop

They went on a date on the tree!

This is unfortunately very delayed as I got very sick for a few days and at one point fell on the ground very dramatically for absolutely nobody to see (it was 6am) but i hope everyone is having happy holidays!^^

[edmundosdiaz]

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[sea-buns]

Chaos' new design is the sickest shit I've ever seen. I'd already briefly seen the artwork, just without the context on who it was. NEVERR would I have guessed Chaos not in a million years and that's THE BEST PART!!

LIKE FUCK DUDE YOU SEEIN THIS SHIT?! GET YOU A PRIMORDIAL ORIGINATOR THAT CAN DO BOTH

[slutdge]

day 9,047 of the dont kill yourself challenge

[blackheart-6]

noelle and susies funky boogie time dance!

commission

[spaciebabie]

im about to fall for one of the classic gay blunders. see you on the other side 🫡

[letterlifter]

hi! im curious on any fun design details for deep diver!! idk how to ask this. like.. fun facts regarding her? i dunno im curious on how u went about it!

i cant remember if i talked about her before, so here is what i do remember.... she was fairly straightforward for me to design, pretty much just a cartoon take on old diving suits, but my most awesome fact about her are the other things i was inspired by for her design

beyond the obvious, i remember being inspired by dennis from spongebob… maaaybe it comes off in personality..? (when i say personality, i mean visual personality which is different from how she may be written, i didnt do anything for her on the writing side)

the other inspirations were treasure knight from shovel knight, anglerfish, and…marvin the martian… yes...i only remember this because i pulled up the pureref sheet/moodboard i made when i was designing her

in terms of process, deep diver is one of the few cogs i designed without much prior sketching, i used a lasso fill tool and blocked in shapes and colors fairly quickly 🐟⚓️

[fiddles-ifs]

I'm a huge fan of your work and absolutely love it, but I feel pretty conflicted over your use of AI Art. There are quite a few posts going around reminding people to not use text AI generators because it scrapes people's works, the same way we shouldn't use AI Art generators because its based on stealing people's art.

So that makes it pretty disheartening as an artist to watch an author use AI that takes advantage of us, especially during a time when companies are in the middle of trying to replace both writers and artists with AI.

I don't think it's my place to tell you what to do but I was hoping maybe you could give some insight behind your thought process behind using it, and maybe that would help me feel less bad about it? I honestly don't mean this as any kind of passive aggressive attack or anything :( I genuinely just don't know how to feel about it and was hoping maybe more info would help. If you don't want to get into it, I understand, and thank you anyway.

(The new project sounds fantastic)

I assume you mean Artbreeder? For me it was a real case of "didn't know and didn't bother to check" <- FOOLISH STATEMENT.

I've gone ahead and taken the portraits off those posts (and deleted any I made with Artbreeder). Physical representations of the ROs for both games will return once I draw all their portraits, which is what I should have done in the first place.

[cynda-queer]

Wait. Going through the woobles tag is so funny. Everyone has these lil guys they made and they're all so happy to show them off like "I made them with my hands" and I'm like you get it!!! "They're so wonky, but I love them and I'm so excited to be learning a new skill" YOU GET IT

Just makes me happy seeing everyone's first lil crochet projects and being like :') yeah me too

[bloodmoonlich]

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[nerdy-hyperfixations]

Can't tell if Scott Pilgrim is genuinely leaving hyperfixation status or if this is a false alarm again, but be warned maybe?

[tetsuskei]

hi risu! thanks for opening your inbox again! anyways, whenever you try to prove how ‘independent’ you are and how you don’t actually need him, childe has you ride his thigh to get yourself off knowing that you won’t be able to make yourself cum like this, oooh and he loves watching the jerky movements of your hips, hearing your little whines of protest, a silent plea for him to just help you - you know he could so easily, too, he could slide his fingers into you or at the very least play with your clit, but instead his hands are resting under his head, laid back and relaxed. it’s torture, the friction building but never enough to actually let you finish, and he is just giggling to himself at how cute and desperate you look 🥰🥰🥰🥰

look, i don’t know HOW you knew that i am like a very independent person or struggle with asking for help from people, but i don’t appreciate being read for filth right now 💔💔💔 and thigh riding is so 🤕☹️ like tbh i probably would find a way to cum on his thigh (tmi i’m sorry) so i’d be a bit smug about that, might end up dealing w the consequences later (oops). but BUT it would be so frustrating not having his help and being so close to him. like he’s so mean but im stubborn and im not going to say or ask for any help >_> ! looks like i am the only one losing anything from this. but i’m imagining how hard he’d be but the self control he would have from not having touched himself,,, im so embarrassed i could not look at him, i’d have half a mind to get up and walk away because i’m a certified brat 😔💔

[zepplinswraith]

So either way stop blocking mayhem or give up and unblock him because he’s not giving you uncomfortable he only wants to see you post making fiends content more often until he realizes you changed to yttd why can’t you make an acc for making fiends for once in your life…..

uh no??? im the one drawing lol, i draw for myself. i post so that other people who like the things i draw can also enjoy what i create.

i dont draw what other people want, at least not for free (thats what commissions are for afterall) if im getting harassment and being cyberstalked because i posted/post art for one thing and become uncomfortable due to it im no longer going to post that art even if i do make it.